Guru Pooja Experience by Sow. Janaki- Mumbai - “என் வாழ்வில் மஹாபெரியவா” புத்தகமும் மஹாபெரியவா குரு
Your Compassion Mercy Sympathy Empathy Karunyam and Karunai
knows no boundary you are boundless hence your divine excellence
also boundless. When we think of you speak about you and write about you
uniform out come of expression is tears brimming the eyes and roll down
towards your LOTUS FEET.
Guru Pooja Experience by Sow. Janaki- Mumbai
|| Shri Ganapathyae Namaha ||
|| Shri Raghavendraya Namaha ||
|| Shri Mahaperiva Sharanam ||
POWER OF COMPLETE SURRENDER :
THE LORD COMES RUNNING FOR YOU ,IN FACT HE HIMSELF IS CARRYING YOU IN HIS HANDS . HAVE COMPLETE FAITH AND PATIENCE!!
Note : Kindly excuse as I have not mentioned identity for personal reasons, I humbly request the readers to look in for the GRACE OF MAHAPERIYAVA AND HIS DIVINE PRESENCE rather than the names involved. Please bare with me.
My eyes have dried and my tears themselves plead me not to let them out since I have wept enough in the past 6 years till date. Karma is not a word to just talk and leave about, but it is a gentle reminder everyday which keeps saying no one can run away from their conscience. Probably , God made me understand this in a very nice manner, just like we say stories to kids to make them understand, our lives karma are also God’s way of telling LIFE”S LESSONS to us !!
I am an engineering graduate and just like every other girl, I too became a friend with a guy during my tail end of final year college. With just only few months left for the college to get over and pack our bags home he proposed me. I am generally a person who thinks a lot before I decide over things, and just as I got to know his liking for me I asked a lot of questions to the boy since we were of different castes , language etc and told it would be difficult for the relationship to work as “ marriage “ involves families .The very first question that I asked to the boy was “ what will your parents say since you being the elder son ,they might have so much of expectation from you “ so kindly rethink and decide as it is not a joke playing around one’s life for which he answered saying my parents love me and they will surely love my decision too.
The boy was academically brilliant and got placed in a pioneer of IT companies and I too had got placed in another MNC company from our college hires. After college he left to his place of work and I came home and was waiting for my call letter.
Months passed by and our talks progressed and we got to know each other well and that I was so taken by his good qualities that I too started liking him but I did not agree to his proposal as I was constantly questioning on various things daily and he used to answer patiently too. Liking gradually increased and I got my call letter and I left outstation for work.
After going there I myself thought its high time I decide and on one such day it was Ganapathi Chathurthi , I agreed to the proposal and we decided to get married and inform parents at the earliest Years passed by and suddenly I felt sick and I was diagnosed of Tuberculosis and my treatment started.
This took a major set back in my career and even asked him to leave me and go ,but he was a gentleman then, he stood by me and said a true relationship means it has to stand through thick and thin and not leave and go during times of trouble. I got recovered completely by the divine grace of Shri Raghavendra Swamy and after which he disclosed the matter to his home and initially his parents did not agree ,later agreed for the alliance.
After few months of his parents acceptance, I too informed my home and parents got a shock of their lives and did not agree, later they also understood my liking and the boy, his qualities and spoke to him over phone and liked his nature and agreed . As in repeated talks won their trust that he ll look after me well and for the nice qualities , my family accepted too.
That was the time he had to leave abroad for work , and that my family members went to his house for a casual talk to know their family , but were very much upset as the boy’s family mainly spoke only on money and nothing else and also they were very much reluctant to agree to the fact that I was completely recovered and were constantly worried that I may be prone to a relapse despite repeated confirmations . This had a deep sense of doubt in my family but the boy took sincere efforts to ensure that his family is not so and that things will fall in place and convinced and borrowed time to talk between families and then take a call.
My parents invited them to our house and his parents also agreed to come and pursue the talks. He left abroad and I was also bit happy that things were falling in place. But to our surprise a sudden turn happened and that his family called us one day and said me( myself ) coming to their house ( as in marriage with their son ) would cause death and that this alliance has all bad things around and even asked my father to produce a certificate if I can lead a family life successfully or not. Just imagine my parents plight and they were taken aback as they agreed initially to come to our house and proceed further talks ,but finally back tracked. This was the first hindrance that happened.
The boy was not even informed about this by his father and that my parents also did not talk much on this. We both thought the parents are deciding on further talks. One evening , my sister informed me about this and it was me who informed the boy about the sudden back track by his father and he was shocked to hear this but still stood by me to fight for our love.
The fight lasted for over 3 years till this July 2018 for his parents acceptance ,and finally as a sign of victory by God’s grace they accepted and invited my family home. Just imagine for 3 years he managed my parents and his parents and all the more my parents patiently waited just because for me and me alone and for the boy’s character.
Me and the boy were a bit relieved as he constantly fought over for their consent and they agreed to him saying they will soon finalise the talks and fix a date. There were no nights that passed without leaving my eyes wet as I when used to see my parents sleeping , tears and tears were my only companion.
One day during our wait period I was flipping through my phone and I happened to see a photo of MAHAPERIVA”S GLASSES AND FLOWERS ON IT and asked Swamy will we unite, please help us and the next photo was also A PHOTO OF HIS HOLINESS BLESSING saying “ ANANDAMA AMOGHAMA IRUNGO” I felt so happy that HIS HOLINESS HIMSELF HAS GIVEN HIS CONSENT. Later only I understood the meaning.
This July my parent called his father and they also agreed and as a family we all went (not me) thinking it will finalise but to our surprise the same episode of 2015 happened . MONEY, HEALTH, DIFFERENCES & DEATH were the only words heard and not even a word regarding our wedding was talked over. There was a total contrast to what we were told, and the boy also firmly believed that his parents would talk in convergence with the wedding but they had twisted and turned everything upside down.
His family turned even the talks and told that my family came with an intention to cancel the wedding and twisted everything to psy – turvy. Since he was not in India , he also could not do much. My family tried their best ,invited them home,asked them to talk to me, called them to have a look at our family, but no response was given but for cold reactions alone.
My family understood that when MONEY HAS COME IN-BETWEEN RELATIONSHIPS, THERE IS NOT PLACE FOR LOVE AND AFFECTION AND ITS BETTER TO COME AWAY. With deep pain and such long waited years having gone in vain, my family came home. I knew something was not ok as I had asked my mother to take GURU”S photo with her, but the bag was retained back at home itself while leaving. (I understood GURU DID not GO TO THEIR HOME AND I WAS ALONE AT HOME SO FELT ,but somewhere thought GURU STAYED BACK) !!
The boy and I were very much hurt and we decided to give up as we have fought enough for their consent as much we could & he too got depressed and dejected and asked me to move on in life. We both mutually agreed to part ways , but so many years of love and long struggle and all the more he has stood with me through all times of lows and highs I felt it was my part to support ,and we were talking again , but suddenly he called one day and said that his parents said that they will not and never agree to this marriage and asked me to move on and totally blocked my contact too.
After this when I was seeing Periva’s photo and asked why all these , will we unite or not and when I was seeing photos ( there was photo some download saying “ended”). I understood the meaning but sometimes there were mixed results from somewhere else also so , did not take it too seriously nor did I leave it as it was constantly hitting at the back of my mind.
Months and months of crying ,and this was the time Mahaperiva came into my LIFE AND SAVED ME, rather I would say I realized GURU’S PRESENCE ONCE THE IGNORANCE FADED AWAY.which I was stuck with all these days. EVERYDAY I used to see a video of Mahaperiva’s Experience and read HIS miracles and shed tears and tears seeing HIS BOUNDLESS COMPASSION ON EVERY SOUL whoever came and even on those who did come to HIM.
After his ( the boy) no-contact period, I seriously was taken care like a baby by SHRI MAHAPERIVA and really I should say HE took so much care and is still taking care like my AMMA. I REALLY CALL him AMMA only and cry everyday. Everyday I used to ask him why all of a sudden he hid himself , why is he not contacting me etc.
literally used to cry and plead PERIVA, but there was no answer, as in there used to be mixed answers but I was not able to understand it correctly with my limited knowledge. Infact I had a swapna where in PERIVA is in a temple and I sit outside a gate and He asks me to sit and says” ava venum nu nae panna “ and “ kavala padriya” and shows two fingers, I still don’t understand the meaning of this but there is certainly a beautiful message hidden in it.
After this, one fine day I got to know SRI GR Mama, through YOUTUBE and I contacted him and told all my woes and really HE IS GOD SENT , from heart I thank God every day to have first got acquaintance with such a pure soul in this KALI YUGA .
Last week I had visited Mama and he gave me “ EN VAZHVIL MAHAPERIVA BOOK” its not a book I see it as PERIVA HIMSELF IN A TEXTED ROOPA and also precious prasadams. I was a Hindi student and I don’t know to read Tamil fluently , ( as in I can read slowly but as a testimony to prove time and again when Mahaperiva is there anything is possible , I took the book to read I started reading without any breaks and one such morning when I finished my slokas and started reading there was a verse from the book and it read
“ yar unga vazhkai vitu ponagalao ava ponavangalave irukatum “ and after this when I opened youtube I came across a video of Mahaperiva’s own divine voice of Periva Kural saying “ Aasaiya rajinama pannidu , edhu melayum priyam vechikadhe en na adhu una vituponalum unaku kashtam ,ni adhu vitu ponalum kashtam”
I felt Swamy was directing me to give up waiting for him to come back and leave and move on. This was reconfirmed when I knew that my parents were looking for horoscopes as this chapter of my relationship got closed completely yesterday.
I was crying asking PERIVA why he (the boy) was not answering and that what was the meaning behind all these and wept asking us to unite, but to my surprise suddenly a mail from the boy had come and that the mail had so much of shocking news for me to digest.
Much to the total contrast of what ever qualities I had respect and admitted and admired him for, was told they were all untrue by the boy himself. ( Just Imagine how the mindset and my heart would have been to first read this , that too from a boy whom I thought of as my own world ) and have being dreaming for all these years. But really it was only because of Mahaperiva I was able to bear this shock.
Else I would have surely fainted and fell. I still did not disclose this to my family as they will surely not be able to digest that the boy himself had played a dual role giving so much of hope , faith and trust. I don’t want to tell too as I know my parents are already stuck with enough pain.
The main miracle lies here : Without my knowledge my cousin had been trying to reach him all these days and asked the boy to give a concrete answer and because of which he has drafted the mail. But for Mahaperiva who else could have asked my cousin sister to do this , and that too I did not know till yesterday after I read the mail alone I came to my realization that Swamy had saved me from two big dangers.
Neither the family was good and now I came to know that the boy himself had not been true to me all these years. Tears rolled when I was seeing Mahaperiva today and wept like a baby saying how compassionate you have been despite my sins, and protected me like a mother hugging her child tight when the baby attempts to do something and is about to fall from a height.
Seriously who else will do this , which mother on earth will do this ? Wept wept and just wept this evening….my AMMA, AMMA and just AMMA..this four words had everything in it!
I have to plead for births to thank and show Gratitude and even if I get so many I can never ever repay by debt. Forever I bend my head and with atmost indebted gratitude I surrender myself to the LOTUS FEET OF SHRI MAHAPERIVA AND MY SINCEREST NAMASKARAMS TO GR MAMA.
My cousin is in Canada , once while she was talking about the boy and asking my decisions regarding this it seems she heard someone saying this near by “ En kozhandai na kashta paduthvena , thangamudiyadha vibaridham vida thanga kudiya kashtam paravalalya “ this happened long back , but yesterday I understood the meaning and wept and wept in tears of gratitude to Swamy for being so so compassionate and kind . May be the two fingers he showed me in Swapna also indicated the two dangers he has saved me from. Fear fills my heart even when I think of it. AMMA…I don’t want anyone except you in this UNTRUE WORLD!! :”(……